I am feeling blah:(

I have to say that although their are so many wonderful things going on around me all the time. I have so much to be thankful for. I have many great friends that are always their for me. A husband that is a rock. I still feel so unhappy at times:( I am just wondering if this is normal!! I get so tired of saying the same things to my husband and friends because I don't want them to think that I am this crazy lady:( don't know why I put so much pressure on myself to keep my feelings to myself:( At times I find it really hard to get through the day without feeling tired or drained or getting crabby. More than anything I want to be the best and most loving mommy. But I feel that I run out of patients so fast. I can't help but feel that their are so many other wife/mommy's that always have it all together and I somehow always fall short. I remember my sister saying to me at one time. "If we compare ourselves to everyone else we will always fall short somehow". I have to remember this. I just can't seem to put my finger on what is wrong with me lately. Its been so long since I have felt like myself and it only seems to be getting worse. I feel a little embarrassed even putting this in writing. But I am hoping with someone reading this they can give me advice? Or if its normal to feel this way? I swear I have more sad or cranky days than good ones lately and that just breaks my heart when I think of my kids and husband who deserve the best:( I have even thought that maybe seeing a counselor would help? But my husband doesn't seem to think I need one. I on the other hand aren't so sure....what other option do I have. I have put this all to prayer at least 20 times a day...and I am still at a loss. I just feel like I have no inner strength left. And I don't know where to start and where all this is coming from? So if any of you wonderful ladies have any encouraging words or similar stories please let me hear it!! Well that's it for now. ~Trisha